Better by now

I close my eyes and count to ten
I've made mistakes I know I'll make again
I write messages I'll never send
I'm not okay but if you want then I'll pretend
It's all good, I'm not scared and I'll hold on

But you said I'd be better by now
All my friends said I'd be better by now
But who cares? 'Cause I'm not better by now, no
I'm not better by now
And you said I'd be better by now
All my friends said I'd be better by now
But who cares? 'Cause I'm not better by now, no
I'm not better by now

Another 4 AM my battery is low
And I still miss you checking that I got home
Leave the lights on when I sleep alone
And I know I should but I just can't let go
It's no good, I'm still scared, wish I was strong

But you said I'd be better by now
All my friends said I'd be better by now
But who cares? 'Cause I'm not better by now, no
I'm not better by now
And you said I'd be better by now
All my friends said I'd be better by now
But who cares? 'Cause I'm not better by now, no
I'm not better by now

I miss you, I miss me
The me I was before, the me before this all
'Cause if I miss you, then I miss me
The me I was before, the me before this all
Yeah, I miss you and I miss me
The me I was before, the me before this all
Yeah, I miss you, I miss me
The me I was before

And you said I'd be better by now
All my friends said I'd be better by now
But who cares? 'Cause I'm not better by now, no
I'm not better by now
And you said I'd be better by now
All my friends said I'd be better by now
But who cares? 'Cause I'm not better by now, no
I'm not better by now