Shadow self

I know I'm a failure in your fucking eyes
But it doesn't matter to me, 'cause your fucking blind
My entire life has been a waste of time, falling for the same tricks, in a different disguise

This is my shadow self, ever since I can remember you look out for yourself
I must be dreaming, for once it seems I'm seeing clearly
Did you think that you could just leave me here to die?
I don't know what I did to deserve this, you don't even treat me like a fucking person
I have no heart, I have no fucking heart
Everything I touch, always falls apart
Why fight for something thats not meant to be?
I'm done being treated, like the dirt underneath your feet
Fill my eyes with flies and cut my throat so I can't breath
I'm so sick of the tangled web we weave
I'd give anything to rid me of these memories
This is my shadow self