I gave you away

Truly the first, the only, the second chance
I gave you away, I gave you away
Nervousness found, you whispered a pure romance
You said don't be afraid, you can't be afraid

But I only hear through critic's love-deaf ears
Choosing that which houses all my fears
My heart will push away if yours gets near
As proof of how it holds you so dear

It's a long way from home
So how did we both get here
Wondering how to feel
We've gone way off course
Thinking ourselves in circles
Making up things to fear

I was afraid what maybe they'd think or say
So I gave you away, I gave you away
New to my eyes, the weeping you blinked away
I was meaning to say, I was burning to say

But we just stood there like fools
Words grew so elusive, silence so cruel
I wish you knew that this next part is true
I never hoped I'd hurt you like I do

It's a long way from home
So how did we both get here
Wondering how to feel
We've gone way off course
Thinking ourselves in circles
Making up things to fear

Every part of me
Knew that this night would be an ending
And damn what people see
I wanted to cry uncontrollably

But that's when you said something so strange
Just as I thought things would never change
You said, “hold me so we always stay the same
But kiss me like they're taking me away.”