Get better

I used to live for days like these
Waking up at half past 3
And crawling in when your alarm would speak

I guess perhaps I’m growing up
Or maybe I’ve just seen enough
Of people going downhill rapidly

And from the day that you met me
I’ve only been selfless once or twice
And though you tried hard to change me
The truth is I’ve been selfish all my life

So call me what you want
But at least I can be honest with myself
I know I used to hold a front
And when I needed it I wouldn’t take the help
But I am changing how I think
And I am trying to change everything
And I hope that you can get better as well

I lost my friends or let them go
In honesty I wouldn’t know
Cause half the time I drank too much to see

If they had just got bored of me
And all my bullshit misery
And all the extra bullshit I would speak

And from the day that you met me
I’ve let almost everyone down
And when the cops came to take me
You thought I would turn things around

So call me what you want
But at least I can be honest with myself
I know I used to hold a front
And when I needed it I wouldn’t take the help
But I am changing how I think
And I am trying to change everything
And I hope that you can get better as well

And if you’re feeling lost like me
Just know I’m trying desperately
But sometimes you’re your own worst enemy
I am my own worst enemy