How to ruin a reputation

Once again I have been out of control
I'm sinking farther and farther but nobody knows
And I'm losing all my friends
And it makes no sense
I've been to hell and back that's no surprise
I've had my head underwater at least once or twice
When it goes down it's just my luck
To have the curtain pulled right from aboe
I thought I had a chance but then
I threw it in the wind
And it caused more suffering
And it's wasting time yea it's wasting time
I never said that I take it easy
I never said that I take it easy tonight
So hold me back before
I make a mess worst than the last
I never said that I take it easy
I never said that I take it easy
So take deep breaths before you let me drown
You need to hold on tight before I drag you down
Once again I have been out of control
I'm going over and under by far a big concern
When your tearing out your best friends hearts
In these overwhelming hours
And all we are just falls apart
We knew it from the start
When it comes down to do or die
And we're wasting time yea we're wasting time