Not my choice

Here I can't find what I am looking for
My actions and my efforts do not seem to worl
I try to understand the others searching for a grip
But the emptiness and fear I find are trying to kill me

But I'm not goin' to give up now
Apathy won't swallow me

Don't want to believe it's my only choice
No I do not want to believe it 'cause
I want to keep being here alive this time

I know you can feel the disgust in me
I wonder if your coscience is clear
While you're acting like this
I won't be frightened by your power
Even when alone
The rage you make grow inside me
Is what makes me so strong

Because I want to keep living
No... I don't want to believe that
It is the only unfair choice I have

Don't want to believe it's my only choice
This is not my choice