House fire

Let’s look back on all the things that were said to me
Pull apart the morals and the lessons that were so clear to see
I was raised in the church

I was taught the truth or at least how to repeat it
But now I can’t be too sure
I never questioned, I never searched for my own
I tried my hardest not to stray from the beliefs of my home

I’ve been trying to remember all the truth that you’ve said
But I get lost with all these doubts and fears
There’s so much doubt and fear inside my head

Burn it down, let it go up in flames
Let the whole thing be rebuilt
Burn it down, I wanna watch it crumble
I want to know the truth, I want to see your life first hand
Take me to the place where it all began

I know you must have been so different than me
I want to know how you lived
And I want to feel your heart beat
I don’t just want the stories

I want to see it all as if I was there
I want to walk the path you walked
And I want to breathe the same air
Cause I can’t help but question when I’m still doubting everything
Show me your life from when you were born
To when you hung on the tree

I want to see the burial grounds
I want to see the stone rolled away, filled with doubt
These relentless questions pounding in my head
I want to know the truth, will you answer me?

It’s as if the Holy Ghost himself came and took me to that place
Gathered all my questions at once and swiftly threw them all away
I saw blind eyes opened, I saw mangled bones restored
I heard all your sermons and watched you calm the storms
But I looked down, I took my eyes off you
I lost track and fell back to the same place

Tossed around, I started doubting you
I’m right back to where I began
After seeing all of this and hearing all your promises
I’d still be in the crowd holding on to my doubt
You’d probably hear me say: I don’t want you to die, I don’t want you to die
There must be some other way than this worthless sacrifice
Three days later just doesn’t make sense

I don’t want you to die, I don’t want you to die
Even if you showed the scars in your hands to me
I think I’d still be filled with doubt and I just wouldn’t believe
I wonder if I’ll ever be fixed
I don’t want you to die, don’t waste your time on me