Help me spell my name

When I look at myself in the mirror
I see a broken soul
With no more sense to fight
Oh I hate what I see in the mirror
Sometimes I feel the need
To leave this life behind

I know that things go well
And I have to be ashamed
I know that I'm a fool
To think of leaving this game
Oh Lord will you help me spell my name

All I wish is the strength
That gets me up again
To write a thousand songs
To run the million miles
All I want is some self-respect
To become my friend
Then I can move the mountains
I would never climb

I know it's just a stage
That I'm going through
But somehow it'll always
Lead me begging to you
Oh Lord will you help me spell my name

But still I'm hurting the few
That I really love
I feel like a fool
Will they understand
Will they try to see
That it's so hard to be me

I know I'm such a fool
To be unhappy now
But every single day
I feel more lonesome somehow
Oh please will you help me
Oh please will you help me
Oh please will you help me spell my name
Oh Lord - will you help me find my way