Falling out of love with you

If I wrote it in a letter
Would you take the time to read about
My sorrows of forgetting
How we used to share the mornings
Back when we had reached our peak
Cause it was a long way down that mountain
After tumbling blindly through your stones and thorns
It felt so cold
To look back and see you with someone I've seen before

I should've seen this coming
I always feared the lonely road and where it'd take me
I'm always falling in love with what's not meant to be

So if I decide to disappear
Leave dependents second guessing
If they're the ones that sent me packing
I only hope they'd leave me be
Cause I've seen a lot of disappointment
And I'm running out of things to tell my mother in appointments
When the doctor doesn't know if these pills are even working
I know it hurts her baad to see me like this
But am I really like this?

You should've seen me sobbing
On my way home down the road I've been avoiding
No matter where the hell I run, depression finds me
No matter how damn tired I get, this keeps on happening
I'm always falling in love with what's not meant to be

Waste, don't watch me waste away
Say, I won't just waste again

I changed again for you
I lost my brain again for you
And all along I knew you were no good
But its hard to be alone and understood
I changed again for you
I sleep in vain again for you