The wrong way

Now I can see how deep these scars go
I buried all of the pain and strangled my soul
My min hid everything beneath the heart
So I regurgitated memories like a flying deck of cards
Too young to die of old ways
"Back in the day when I was young" I was so naive
"I'm not a kid anymore"
But I can't believe some days I wish that I was still that boy
No
The "wrong" knew how to survive, I've seen it
"Right" never spoke my name
Fuck it
So be it
I'm still suffering from bad habits like an old man drug addict
I can't let it end like this
No