A human certainty

Don't come in here
You'll see something ugly
It's not the kind of thing
You'd expect from a body
Don't come in here
Don't see me this way
With my knees on rice
And a prayer for the prey
My face is heavy
My mind is clenched
My eyes are disgusted
My hands are hot
My walls are green
My walls are red
I only cry wolf
When all my sheep are dead
Don't come in here
I beg of you
Yes there's love in my heart
But there's hatred in my thoughts
Don't believe in me
Or anything that speaks
For you won't be deceived
By a human certainty
My face is heavy
My mind is clenched
My eyes are disgusted
My hands are hot
My walls are green
My walls are red
I only cry wolf
When all my sheep are dead
Last night I had a dream about you
and in my dream you were only
asleep I sat in a chair and watched
you as you laid there so beautifully
the still of the night made me lonely
I wanted to touch you. I wanted
to feel you. I wanted things to be
just like they rise to be except I'd
keep all my promises the I felt
so ashamed
I was so ashamed until
I realized we're all guilty of that dream
and forever I wish you
a beautiful sleep