Spay me

I fucked someone with words, broke a promise
You forgave but you won't forget
I pray the day will come, when you see I was numb
Till you burned me with your cigarette
But each fight leaves my vocal chords shattered
I sing with my gums spiked with glass
I pray and I beg like a dog
Hump your leg till you spay my sorry, broke ass

Singing:
Why do you, always have to push you far away from me?
All I want is to stay with you
So naive, each time you leave, I always still believe in you
Know that I'm holding you down
Now you're out on the town
The courage you found is spitting in spite of me
Leaving me dead on the ground

Cater to me or punch myself until my face is blue
Later you'll be just as sorry as me for the things you do

If I'm an arrogant prick shitting out heart attacks
Then you're the queen of the dammed: feelingless, devoid of tact
Hey I'm the crazy one here! I'm dying of a deep regret

But I can't stand these nights I've spend alone, awake, begging
Tearing my face apart like cheap leggings
I'm sorry my love, I'm gone
You keep egging this on

What did I just do?
Pack my shit up and go, I'm getting wasted
Pack my shit up and go, I'm gonna face this
What did I just do?