Motionless skeptic

i watched you throw up your insides.
i watched you rot so thin.
i watched you pause threw breaths. not knowing when you'd end.
did you leave because life's cruel? or because God laughs at my pain?
i know where ever you are i hope you're in a safer place. you know i miss you and it's hard to live without you. and i know if you can see me these days then i know it must be hard for you too. i wish i would have been there. i know i should have been there.
i wish i would have been there.
i know i should have been there.
i wanted to be there for your last breathe.
hold your hand till nothing was left except for your flesh. that's my one regret. you were there for me when i came in.
i wasn't there for you when you left. you were there for me when i came in.
every day is a struggle.
not being able to see your face. my ears grow cold not being able to hear your voice.
i loathe this place.
i had myself under a false appearance just so they will go away.
i hope you know how much i love you and i hope you know how much i care.
i wish i would have been there. i know i should have been there.
i wish i would have been there.
i know i should have been there. i wanted to be there for your last breath. hold your hand till nothing was left except for your flesh. that's my one regret.
you were there for me when i came in.
i wasn't there for you when you left.
you were there for me when i came in. i watched you throw up your insides.
i watched you rot so thin.
i watched you pause threw breaths.
not knowing when you'd end.
i wish i would have been there.
i know i should have been there.
i wish i would have been there.
not being there is my one regret!