Lost cause

Took a lot to get to twenty seven
My knees are weak but I'm still standing
I wasn't meant for making it but I'm not the type to call it quits
Call me but trying to be clean
Breaking but still in one piece
Hanging on, hanging on but I feel like we're slipping

We win some but lose most
These close calls keep us close
This life is wearing thin, it's eating at my skin
We can't keep reflecting just keep opressing
On and on and on until we find where we belong

I can't seem to get past all my problems
Try my best but never solve them
I was never one for making it and I think it's fine we're sinking in
Call me and not coming clean
Breaking and losing each piece
Falling down and falling down no one's reaching out to catch me

What's it gonna take for me to find my way
I can't keep struggling to always finish in last place
Am I just wasting all my time?
Chasing the wrong life?
I just wanna be, I just need to be
Free from the judgement
When all vote against me
Free from opinions they built
But now I strike back
Can you even hear me, I'm fucking screaming
I just wanna be heard
Will someone save me
Bring me to safety

We win some but lose most
These close calls keep us close
This life is wearing thin, it's eating at my skin
We can't keep reflecting just keep opressing
On and on and on until we find where we belong

And I've given everything, given everything
But I get nothing, get nothing
And I'm not giving in, not giving again
My knees are weak but I'm still standing

Everyone tells me to stay strong
But I've got nothing to hold on
Everyone tells me to stay strong
But I've got nothing to hold on
Everyone tells me to stay strong
But I've got nothing

Lately my heart is a mess where anxiety nest
I feel invested in stress like it's all I have left
Every failure's a debt and they're up to my neck
I'm fucking drowning in doubt and there's no swimming out

Everyone tells me to stay strong
But I've got nothing to hold on
Everyone tells me to stay strong
But I've got nothing