River of conspiracy

I sit here so peacefully, so stoned
Engineering tranquility, and quietude of my own
Is it sad that only here is where I feel at home?
It might be, for you, but it's all I've ever known

I floating down this river solemnly and alone
And I wonder how much further it is that I must roam
Is it too late now for me to turn around?
Cause I'm never, no I'm never coming down from here

I've been trying to tell you who I am
But you don't want to listen, because you just don't give a damn
It's not that hard being my friend
I need you, I do

I've been trying to tell you who I am
But you don't want to listen, because you just don't give a damn
It's not that hard being my friend
I need you, I do