Place i was before

Today is not my day but I'm
Still searching for reasons to try
I can't help but think I've chosen the wrong door
Cause this isn't the life I want anymore

I've been up all night
Pacing my mind for a new life
Cause this one don't fit right
And I don't know if I'm awake, dead, or sleeping on the floor
Just take me back to the place I was before

Was there a time I can't recall?
A missing page that said it all?
Wish I could say that I'll get through but I'm not sure
When the sun comes up if I'm not here
I'm at the place I was before

I could buy a thousand years but still
I'd never find a way around my fate
I can't hide the way I fear inside
Each step I take's one closer to the grave