Here i am

I never thought i'd see the day
when you would up and walk away from me. but now
it hits me just like a slap to the face.
i draw a blank, with nothing i can say to make you stay.

i'm trying hard to understand.
if you want me, here i am.
this is just as hard as i thought that it would be.
i thought this would last forever.

as you speak i can see the truth in your eyes.
until now, i never realized that you were untrue.
and to think that all this time i was ashamed,
i thought that i should take the blame for everything.

i'm trying hard to understand. if you want me, here i am.
this is not as hard as i thought that it would be
once i looked around to see what was left.
but to no avail, i found that it was gone.
i know nothing lasts forever

it took this long to understand
that you don't want me as i am.
i could never change enough to make you mine,
but if you want me here i am.

Want me? Here I am.