Try real hard

Why dont you try pulling apart my world?
Break it away so neat
Do what the disease could never accomplish
Amputate my brain nice and neat

Im just another fool lost in myself
Afraid of whats in heaven
I know whats in hell
I lived there for years

Ive got to live with myself
I cant afford my dreams
Ive got to live with myself
Ive got to ignore these dreams
And ill try real hard not to kill myself
Ill try real hard not to kill myself

Its growing in my head
Like a little reminder
Of something really obscene
Something like what is in my nasty dreams

To reach my goal i reach my deception
Its a labor of love
But the job isnt finished
Ive got to shed some blood

Ive got to live with myself
I cant afford my dreams
Ive got to live with myself
Ive got to ignore these dreams
And ill try real hard not to kill myself
Ill try real hard not to kill myself