Wishin' roulette

Maybe this will be the time, when I cut you off this time.
My tongue is so sore from always biting down.
But, maybe a note could do the job just fine.
I would be my chance to clearly spell it out to you.
But, then I couldn't look you in the eye, and I always rip them up, I never follow through.
No, no I can't put this off again or wait another day.
Ill collect the pieces of my note and leave them lying in your way, for you to find and rearrange in such a way so you could finally see what I could never say.

This will be the day, TODAY, when you find my note lying in your way.
Yeah, this will be the day.
My note, you will find and soon you'll see this message is simple.
If you take the pieces of my not and lay them out then the message can be read: first word, first letter: is an "f" the subject is you.