Lost forever

From the age of ten
I remember your pretty smile
I've missed you so within
but can't talk you cause I'm too shy

Many times I've tried but let it be
wondering why cannot I speak
And I'm hoping you could understand

Your picture's on my desk
that guarantees me peaceful rest
The years have gone by fast
but my love to you will always last

Every day I yearn for being with you
I'm stuck in constant pain and can't get thru
and I'm praying you could understand

Again, once again
I fall in love with you
and again, once again,
I can't turn my head away from you

Found the courage from my heart
so I could now talk to you
Far away from calm
You told me I was just a pawn

Burned your picture, stared the flame
the tears are blinding me I am vain
and see that you can't understand

I lost you forever from my dreams
but my heart burns in me longing free
I need to see your beauty smile
if I can't have you I'd prefer dying
Every day I live in cry

But every time I see your sparkling smile
I can't turn my head away for awhile
'cos I'm still hoping you would understand

Again, once again
I fall in love with you
and again, once again,
I can't turn my head away from you

Again, once again
I fall in love with you
and again, once again,

I could leave this all behind if you were mine
Instead I've lost you forever why would I try