Life, scars, apologies

There's a part of me that's coming undone
When tragedy cuts too deep
The scars that it leaves
Will remind me that love can be found
In between the seams of life, scars, apologies

I've been through enough to know
That the water gets rough
Life and love, death and drugs
I've been through enough

And my scars are the proof
There's no hiding the truth
Guilt and shame on display
Is this as real as its feeling?

All my dreams are the cost
From all the battles I've lost
Mocked and judged, sweat and blood
My dreams are the cost

But crying won't stop the bleeding
Cut too deep, I need healing
Wants and needs, apologies
Is this as real as its feeling?
Is this as real as I'm feeling?

I'm not proud of the scars that I've made
But they remind me of what needs to change
Is this as real as its feeling?