Me & god

I used to be good looking
and now I'm not
it's just a little joke between
me and God

it's a life of slow abrasion
of wasted time
it's hard to get out
when your in this deep

atavistic, sycophantic,
psychopathic dreams
that's the only little thing
between God and me

I was slick, I was sick
like no ordinary dick
how I blew my mind
I was long and mean and strong
just like a Soho rat

throw away lines
and throw away friends
I never, ever
wanna see them again

I've been pleasant and kind
and I've calmed my mind
but still I have these
vitriolic, cataclysmic dreams

I was slick, I was sick
like no ordinary dick
how I blew my mind
I was long and mean and strong
just like a Soho rat
I had to feel it
really couldn't see it
my nihilistic tendencies
got the best of me
just like a Soho rat