Under pressure

To my other half, or what used to be, what I used to know,
how it's used to seem & however it used to go,
never foresaw change as a all in all,
but now I'm all for a change baby call this off,
see my intentions were good with tryna be in this,
but I tried seeing it & couldn't find me in it,
& I was ID'ing it, looking for a reason to fall back,
but still daydreaming of call backs,
I guess it was denial, I gave up the fight,
hoping you could downplay the downplays in my life,
I sang "job well done" holding banners in the stands, til' you switched,
now when I think of handing you a hand, I get,
a little less enthused,
cause everything should be the same if we been true,
but everything is rearranged & I'm looking for a light switch,
wishing that I never had to write this

I'm tryna be the best man that I can,
but you fail to realize where I stand, & I'm,
under pressure, the last thing I need is,
you telling me we can no longer be,
ma I'm tryna be the best man that I can,
but you fail to realize where I stand & I'm,
under pressure, cause everything I do, I do for us 2,
but you got me tryna move

They say you fear what you don't understand, try to bury it,
& criticize the chances that you don't ever get,
so from the outside scoping in,
they look towards you to provide the hope for them,
& they being your friends, hate me yet again,
but it's cool, cause none of them made me in the end,
& as for you, I but you on a higher plane,
so high it made it easier to fly away,
see I aint use no one's opinion about you to out you,
never entertained a reason to ever doubt you,
but leave it up to you to play follow along,
they mad cause they don't have & you dropping it off,
& the same ones calling saying what you oughta do,
wasn't tryna help you with everything that you thought you knew,
& I felt for you, wishing I could be there,
but no matter what I told you, you never really cared

I'm tryna be the best man that I can,
but you fail to realize where I stand, & I'm,
under pressure, the last thing I need is,
you telling me we can no longer be,
ma I'm tryna be the best man that I can,
but you fail to realize where I stand & I'm,
under pressure, cause everything I do, I do for us 2,
but you got me tryna move

He say, she say, they say, we say,
pointing fingers at anybody to earn leeway,
all the things you didn't know but might've wondered,
I was tryna find an excuse to fight 'em under,
I spent more time replying instead of trying,
but could've spent half that time to stop lying,
lying to myself & telling me what I wanna hear,
hoping it could erase the shit I done in here,
heartbeat running scared, outside freezer box,
know I got the perfect but I still wanted to see what I,
could pull, so it was all tug of war,
missed calls replaced the rose petal covered floors,
ms. wrong, you was right, & you deserve different,
& yea I work different but know that my hurt isn't,
so no matter the weight, I'm willing to deal with it,
& hopefully we still with it, I'm just really…

I'm tryna be the best man that I can,
but you fail to realize where I stand, & I'm,
under pressure, the last thing I need is,
you telling me we can no longer be,
ma I'm tryna be the best man that I can,
but you fail to realize where I stand & I'm,
under pressure, cause everything I do, I do for us 2,
but you got me tryna move