Truth spoken words

Underneath my affection, lies something very dark
Obessions control my mindless mind
Everything seems to pass me by
Time after time, I cannot seem to grasp past lives
Why is this? Who is this? What is this?
Am I me? Who am I? What am I meant for?

I stare out the window at raindrops falling
Sprinkled one by one, dripping slowing
Fallling further along the glass that hasn't been washed in a lifetime
My breath fogs up the clearity that used to be indivisable
I cannot see out of it any longer

My objection has faded from wonderful feelings
Unto hardcore feelings for another person
We leave together on a plane headed towards another destanation
One I do not know nor understand
I hold onto him, tightly, never wanting to let go

I awake and now know that this can never be true
I attempt to convince myself that it is real
Feelings of romance are beneath me and I hate them
Still I cannot turn away and want this to happen and be open
Fathem my own feelings that this person might already be taken

What has been, once was, the ulitmate truth within my soul
I scream as I attempt to figure out...what was, what might be and what never was
These contexts are deeply hidden throughout time
Deeply rooted beings, with extremely human feelings and emotions
I really think I belong, infact I know.....I am one of them...I have become
ONE!!!