Friendly in the shit

We used to be happy for the cause of being,
Now i put the effort into smiles that i fake.
And you say fuck that, i'm not one of them,
But that's what happens when your dreams don't mean shit.
Nobody wants to see you when you're crying,
Unless the situation has something to gain.
Sit back, now you're the lucky one,
Sometimes i wish i could say the same thing for me.
Just relax, kid, you're set for life.
Just don't let the lights go down.
Keep that smile, be polite for now.
Keep hate from sounding out.
So let's be friendly while we're in the shit,
Be friends while we have that in common.
That courtesy's for naïve kids,
And humility's for has-been's.
Come join the ranks of the arrogant who kiss ass "networking" for friends,
Because integrity is fashion.
God, tell me that i'm different, because i ought to be.
If i can't forgive my enemies,
Then i may run out of friends,
So i'm waiting now.
Will i forget?
As if it were that easy to take a pill to sto…
A pill to stop this feeling,
To convince you all that i'm more than zero…
Trust me, i'm not dead and i'm not jaded like i've been,
So put the knife in.
You know that i'll be waiting.
Do you recall the moment when we walked away,
When we shit the bed?
I bite my tongue when i think of you,
Because all in all i know we're through…and i don't mind.
In all my careless fuck-ups,
Now you know my secret, so won't you help me out?
In my head, repeating…