I keep my eyes shut

My life is trusted to myself
No hope, no fear, nothing around here
I care no more for things that I adore
You don't pray for God's help anymore

I hate you and me and the whole world
Zero attraction for mankind's infection
Always taking shortcuts
A signatory with a broken hand

I keep my eyes shut when you want me to see
I keep my mouth shut when I don't want to speak
And if you try to touch me and I run away
You get cross, as you cannot feel my pain

I keep my eyes shut when you want me to speak
I keep my mouth shut when I don't want to see
And if you ask my questions and expect an answer
You get cross, when I don't waste futile words on you

Polarising separation
Serving poisonous mushrooms for dinner
Trapping myself without your fervour
I'm changing victims every hour