Despondent surrender

I look all around and I do not like what I can see
The sky is painted gray as tears rain down all over me
My eyes are ever dimming as I sink into this well
Living in the depths of my own self-made hell

I give up on life
I'm not meant for this world
I no longer feel (like I belong here)

I never swam on down this constant ever-flowing stream
Each night I go to sleep wondering if this is all a dream
Lying in my bed and contemplating thoughts of death
Fear escapes me as I long to end my breath
This world is depressing and I feel a need to leave
Caught within the web my misanthropy doth weave
Emotional breakdown and I soon will give in
Despondent surrender, why fight what I cannot win?

Aah.... Aah....
I no longer really care
My eyes are dry my heart is bare
Aah... Aah...
Sinking deeper in the well
I hear the tolling of the midnight bell