Acts of reparation

Daylight
I’m still awake
Consciously asleep
Wrapped in my disbelief
Poisoned by mistakes
Tearing life from me
How could I fall away

We will always search for something more
But it’s easier to drown inside
The fear of growing old
Some things are harder to let go too far away
Too far away from all the lies

Buried by my mistakes
Boxed in my self hate
How could I fall away
All that comforts me
All who treasure me
All that I’ve turned away

We will always search for something more
But it’s easier to drown inside
The fear of growing old
Some things are harder to let go too far away
Too far away from all the lies

With the act of reparation you deny
You are torn between the lies you left behind

All I want is a reaction
I test pain for pleasure
You won’t touch me
I just want to feel something
Anything at all

We will always search for something more
But it’s easier to drown inside
The fear of growing old
Some things are harder to let go too far away
Too far away from all the lies
Too far away from all the lies