Fatal flaw attractions

I'm not sure if this is love
Too much free time too many drugs
And parking cars in alley ways
To kill all the pain

Wake up calls at 4 a.m.
To find a fix, maybe a friend
Just somebody to listen when
You don't quite make sense

Waiting rooms, hospital beds
The smell of this place gets in your head
And reeks of a life much shorter than
You once imagined

I watch their eyes cut through my bones
I pray to God to save my soul
Watch my regrets rise up like ghosts
I buried them so long ago

Fatal flaw attractions
Some kind of chemical reaction
I'm starting over backwards
I'm starting over backwards

All the things I used to have
Cigarette smoke, white pills and cash
The purity it never lasts
I keep forgetting

And all those friends who knew my name
They weren't my friends, they were my chains
It's a narrow road, there's no debate
But my crooked head won't stand up straight

Fatal flaw attractions
Some kind of chemical reaction
I'm starting over backwards
It's the only way I know how
I'm starting over backwards
It's the only way I know how

All around me, all around me
I watch everything disappear into itself.
All around me, all around me
It's amnesia I feel it already

Fatal flaw attractions
Some kind of chemical reaction
I'm starting over backwards
It's the only way I know how
I'm starting over backwards
It's the only way I know how