Her best friend

How could I not be jealous?
How could I not be sad?
Though I'm well aware of the circumstances,
And I'm quite conscious of the past,

And I understand her position,
And I realize the situation at hand,
And even if she had different feelings,
I know that it would be a futile demand,

But I want her really bad
She says I'm her only real friend
And she doesn't think about me like that

Well maybe a friend means forever to her
But forever doesn't mean that much to me
I'm much more concerned with the present and the past
I'd much rather let the future be

I guess I should be happy to be her best friend
I guess I should be happy that we even met

But I don't see how she could feel nothing
It always seemed like we were on the same page
We'd always been so symbiotic
I didn't think we'd always have to stay the same

And I think about how quickly I forgot about all my friends
The first time a girl kissed me
The first time a girl held my hand
And I really don't think it's fair or reasonable
For her to give her love to anyone but me

Well maybe we'll be friends forever
But maybe we'll grow apart no matter what we do
And I want a best friend for a lover
It's only fair to give my love to you

You say you love him
You just met him
You say he loves you
He can't comprehend you

I guess I should be happy to be your best friend
I guess I should be happy that we even met
I guess I am

I guess I know you love me and you understand
I guess you do just about everything for me you that you can

So go on out and fuck a total stranger
Go ahead and marry an ordinary man
I'll be your friend, just like I've always been
It's still the same as it's always been