The beginning that lies

I welcome you - my spark
Come light me!
Start beating now - you heart of mine!
Electrify my humble being
Fall dreaming into this well of life.

For all around these endless whispers
Are there to keep me safe and warm
Embedded in eternal humming
Never again I'll feel so calm

My world is water
It's there to warm me
Within her darkness
No one can harm me

With this spasms of the world
Suppressed into the world
The bitter taste of reddish eyes
In sweat and tears between her thighs

Within this spasms of my soul
My body lost, her soothing calm
I heard her distant fainting beat
I took a breath - to start to scream

My world was water
Just there to warm me
Within her darkness
No one could harm me

Where are you now - you spark - that lit me?
To start this torturing heart of mine?
To click the clock that ticks and tingles
While falling into what they call life

And how I miss those endless whispers
Surrounding me holding me warm
So deep within perpetual humming
Never again I've felt so calm

Sometimes when I await sleep
The memories that lie so deep
Flood up and then I start to cry
When I recall how I started to die