Life in drag

I tried to keep a steady hand
Tumble blocks start again
I held your side when you let go
And you came back well-rehearsed in holding your own

A broken seal, a past unknown
Retrieve my heart from alamo
I need you here, to touch your skin,
Reconfigure, deconstruct, and begin

The centers shrunk between your eyes
Sharper corners, broader sides
And I felt weak in woman's wear
Gender-fucked, dilated, stuck holding a stare

You taught me how to guard my self
To keep my heart unscathed in health
I think you got carried away. Reached out your hand,
It carried you away

Well it's life in drag.
You wore and armor that covered your face
It's life in drag
I wore hands high to show truce and embracing
It's life in the drag

Who taught you how to hate yourself?
Who forced you to confide in spell?
Mistook 'pathetic' for 'empathy'
Cast a stone at the foe and the stone hit me

I held your hand in ritual to show disarming.
While you were a weapon inside your self, inside your body
I can't pretend, I can't conceal my apprehension
When pressed against the callous of your palm
I reconciled because you couldn't feel me there

You wore the binary like a badge of honor
While I struggled dealing with the loss of yet another
Life in drag