On the brink

I can't move, I can't sleep
I can't eat, I can't breathe
Without pain

I feel weak, I feel trapped
I feel tired, I feel sapped
Once again

I am done, I am gone
I am spent, I am drawn
To the brink

Every time this happens
I lose the ground I've gained
If this is what my life is
Complaints can't be contained

I'm beat down, I'm held up
I'm held down, I'm beat up
Is there nothing I can do?
I'm led right, I'm pulled wrong
I'm pushed right, I'm dead wrong
If I admit that I am through

I was strong, I was me
I was whole, I was free
Without pain

I want hope, I want time
I want health, I want life
Once again

I need help, I need you
I need peace, I need to
Live again

Every time this happens
I should be more aware
It's nothing I can't handle
Even though it seems unfair

I'm beat down, I'm held up
I'm held down, I'm beat up
Is there nothing I can do?
I'm led right, I'm pulled wrong
I'm pushed right, I'm dead wrong
If I admit that I am through

Evaluating, complicating, accelerating to the brink
Accumulating, calculating, substantiating at the brink
Negotiating, meditating, separating on the brink
Retaliating, isolating, evaporating from the brink
Hallucinating, regulating, medicating to the brink
Disintegrating, speculating, fluctuating at the brink
Concentrating, navigating, suffocating on the brink
Operating, supplicating, liberating from the brink

I have faith, I have will
I have strength, I have still
To overcome

I won't stop, I won't break
I won't lose, I won't take
Anymore

I will stand, I will fight
I will try, I will right
What is wrong

Every time this happens
I know what I derive
I always receive strength from you
That helps me to survive

I'm beat down, I'm held up
I'm held down, I'm beat up
But there's something I can do
I'm led right, I'm pulled wrong
I'm pushed right, I'm dead wrong
If I think I won't pull through