A damn good disguise

You long for a bar with a quiet room
But no one's gonna treat you like a kid that way
You've got trouble enough since you fucked the landlord
You're breaking like eggshells from under the car door
The grains of regret still blooming in her face now
Nothing is settled so that makes you nervous
Cause you won't be so lucky when they figure it out
And your hand moves so slightly
She'd scarcely notice what you call audacious dear
I barely count and i won't be there when you change your mind
But if your heart should change i guess i might be found
Whether covered up with lies under paint that never dries
It'll take a damn good disguise to live this one down now
You run very slowly but not without purpose
You step in a verse
You walk always in rain and me
Some small token of your inaffection that lingers unwelcome
And then drifts away
We deferred to your parents
Who gladly consented though you were pretending
And i really meant it
You turn a blind eye to a blank wall
And that's our life
Hey you're killing me with protocol
She acts just like she's seen it all
But i don't think she's seen this
A big shot at the mini mall
You learned it all before
You could crawl
It don't make you a genius
Now the obsessives tribunal has brought you to trial
For an in gratitude that surprises even yourself
And the things you were given that you claim to find vial
You cling to like cancer impeaching your health
And i do not wish this misery upon you or anyone else
That it might desire though
It is my fear darling that it will choose you
And it is my fear darling that you will requite it