Vicious devotion

Now this might sound one sides, and in a way it is
'Cause it's just me right now looking back on prior instances
I hope this doesn't lack the meaning I intend for
Or come across to strong and make things worse
I just think we could have been more, and still can
I mean I could give a lot more of me
More effort, less struggle, and a little more honesty
Cause honestly, it's time to man up,
I know you waited long enough
I let things rumble twice, the time I won't jam up
Still we've got issues, resolving is the key, obviously
But your philosophies I hope you know at times are hard for me
I want to see, but that novelty wore thin and lost its touch
Somewhere along the way it lost us
But I'm feeling better as the day goes by, still lacking motivation
And if patience ain't your virtue, your mask it in concentration
Getting stronger, night comes on,
Not just going through the motions
Cause if jealousy's our weak point baby,
Douse it with devotion

I'm trying to settle the score, you said you'd heard it before
And what's more, I got the passion to change
But not the patience to stop
So when I said it was wrong I really meant it was not
And we're not, and we can pick it up from where we left off

It's summer trips to that airport, your soft lips
The nights are just too short
It's cigarettes through the window, old Pogues tapes
Oh, where does the time go?