Wishlist for the drowning

You can't feel this weight all eyes on me now
Every glance is another slit in my wrist
It's all accidents and splendor four pills
That you have never seen skin that shade of blue before or felt breath that cold
I guess that it never touched you
In quite the same way it all falls down one by one
It all adds up
I thought that you knew that living on the edge was all I ever do
It never touches soft enough
And you would never let me give up
No matter how much I wanted to
And someday you will know that all of my sleepless nights and tear stained pillows were never meant for you to understand
And even though it seems like I'm always falling apart
I'm still standing on these broken legs just hold on
Just hold on
I'm still living at all cost.