Homesick dirge

It's cold in this house with the snow piled to the roof
We've been frozen inside for years
We still sleep in our separate rooms

I hope your bed stays full with the indent that I left way back
When I stopped giving everything I had just to keeping you in the past

Can you give me that
And let me step outside?

So now if we don't speak
My love, please don't you miss me
We were wrong from the beginning
And if you want me to
I can drain out the water
That floods our basement windows
That pours into our gutters
But it can't, it can't and it won't change anything

My head rolls back and forth
Again, back and forth

Now through the walls, I hear lullabies sung in their bedrooms
But they're being drowned out by the sound
Of this homesick dirge I can't stop singing
Pass out by 6:00 and wake up well past noon
No one knows if I'm leaving tonight and where it is I'll be going to

Does that upset you?
'Cause it does for me

So now if we don't speak
My love, please don't you miss me
We fell off from the beginning
And if you want me to
I can drain out the water
That floods our basement windows
That pours into our gutters
Would that be good for you
So give my clothes to our sons
Pack this house and then move on
Just know when all this is done
I tried and tried and tried to be good for you

But it's calmer now
I am calmer now