Cross the rubicon

I close my eyes now, i just feel hate
To feel the dust of apathy
We had more than 2 years to bleed
Now i entwine insanity
Heartless - i follow - repentance is not a word we know
We had to inhale despair and finally we found distance
I really wished to make it all undone
Heartless - i follow. repentance is not the word we know
I asked for destiny
All wounds i may deserve
My body feels like nailed to the ground
Within blind hate i did not know the glare of the sun
Nothing seemed to be strong enough, to share our wish
Together as one. i lay down and cross the rubicon
I never wanted you to hate me
My feelings i shall desecrate
Cant forget how i drowned in solitude
Honour and pride!?!? what the hell! did you care!?