No regrets

Distorted spine and legs of lead,
Unbearable silence and a spoiled stench
I cry dry tears, and hope with sudden fears
I try to hide my shame for you... this time

I close my eyes and try to hide
I blame myself for all the pain
Will I regret my life on the other side?
Is it worth playing this game

I won't even bother to explain
so don't ask me to share my burden again
Please, don't judge me now
for I must leave all of this behind

I hear the sound of absent voices
deep inside my head
What made me behave this way?
How could this happen?

I thought I've left this behind, I'm cold inside
Lost in search for the answers, I'm lost this time
I'll try to hide my shame but it's me I'll betray
I'm cold now, I'm going back, tomorrow I'll find another way

Today started as a promising day
But my grief has taken control
It's too late now, all harm is done
Please don't cry in compassion

I thought I've left this behind... I'm cold inside
Lost in search for the answers... I'm lost this time
In silence I fade away
This time I can't find myself in here