Between shades of gray

I cannot, i can`t longer wait.
My eyes close by themselves.
I want the darkness, the silence,
The unconsciousness.

I need to break free of their needs,
Fill the void of my absence.
But their eyes don`t want to see,
What my eyes reflects.

They think they can dispel,
In the echo of their laughter,
My shadows.
My will wrapped in its shades,
That at the end,
Are nothing more than the same gray.
That at the end,
Are nothing more than the same gray.

I cannot, i can`t longer wait.
My eyes close by themselves.
I cannot, i can`t longer wait.
My eyes close by themselves.

I need to break free of their needs,
Fill the void of my absence.
But their eyes don`t want to see,
What my eyes reflects.

Some eyes don`t want to see…

My tired particles, lethargic and dumb,
In my dreams of deep nothingness dissipate.
Between the shades of gray.

Among gray tones, grey spirit.
Gray passion,
Gray path to nihil.
Messy notes and dark colors.
Shouts
I wish i could disappear into the ether
Of this dream of absolute nothingness.