If i forgive myself

Would the sun shine with more colors
Or the flowers have more scent?
Would the clouds pass unnoticed
If I cross those paths again?
Would I build the castle, would I bet on that old dream?
Would I taste the sweetest apple full of life instead of sin?

And I know I'll try
Even though I can't forget the many tears I’ve cried
Look up high, above the sky
Even though I cannot see the shine of the brighter star
I am not the same, I learned the hard way
I have to go on

Candlelight, dancing flames in a stormy cold night
None first time will be the last chance
I will learn to fight
And I've got to hold on tight
If I only knew before
And if I forgive myself

Maybe I have been forgotten like that muse of that old song
Tantrum of an infant, maybe right or maybe wrong
Strange old recollection of my hands in a bare ground
When I was young and strong to carry on
Striving to belong

And I'll try to look up high
For all those years when days were night and many times I’ve died
Cause I know how to survive
For all those tears, for all the fear
For a better tomorrow
For yesterday I'll try

Candlelight, dancing flames in a stormy cold night
None first time will be the last chance
I will learn to fight
And I've got to hold on tight
If I only knew before
And if I forgive myself

For all the tough roads
For the dust I bring with me
Like a memory, walking astray
All the scars and pain for yesterday
Still remind me what made the deepest cut
It's been a long way

Candlelight, dancing flames in a stormy cold night
None first time will be the last chance
I will learn to fight
And I've got to hold on tight
If I only knew before
And if I forgive myself