Puzzle me

What I see is far too much for me
So I find other ways
Through the years you learn to hold your tears
You learn to play the game
No rain will wash the pain
No pain gets up too late, don't you dare
Lovely stories to tell
I am sorry, I just can't today

I reach for something with no name
I name someone with no face
I torture sense
Intensely then I call a ghost
To have a laugh
I am not alright

Standing by my side
Is a shadow with a bow and arrow
In the search of love
What I see is far too hard for me
So I draw other skies
Sometimes all it takes is making a few mistakes
The world is mine

I've been wasting time
I am waking up to songs I love, I love

Then I can chose to stay and lose
The world is mine
I chose to sigh
I am not alright

What I see is far too dark for me
So I just learn to shine