Only myself

Will the day be the first or last
Another time it would be the same
But nothing can ever be this easy
So why are all the choices so hard
I can never find myself in me
Nothing ever seems to be the way
That I thought it would be

I always go where you take me
I never go where I need
You always cloud my choices
I'm never me
I'm always stuck behind you
Gagged to save your face
I never am invited
I know my place

Will my chance be afforded
Or will I be lost in a haze
I don't fell my home
Is the way it should be
I can't understand myself
Always losing track of what I say
But nohing can ever be the way
That I thought it would be

And I don't think you need me anymore
And I can't see what I'm still waiting for
And you don't see
Beacause you don't even know
And I don't understand why we don't go

So why are all the choices
So hard for me to see
Nothing has ever been the way
That I thought it would be