My gift of disaster

Screaming out in silence
this pain must be so deafening
I can't seem to hide it
stands out like my misery
everyday now dying
every moment lost
i sold my soul

i stand in a world who won't except me
hiding by myself from a world who won't respect me
running from the past but the end is coming fast
time is running out
need to find my way out
i don't need you to remind me what a failure i am
just to make yourself look better

fuck the conquences
i'll find a way to destroy you
i'll tear you apart
do what it takes to eliminate you

i give you my gift of disaster
you unwrap my insanity
i eat away at your self concious
your hate reigns down over me

if this is destiny
me defeating you
then i guess this means i have to do what i was born to
with nothing left to loose
we'll see who's the better man
with nothing left to proove
once i stand victorious in the end

fuck your obsitales
i'll break through whatevers in front of me
time to stand up for myself
to take charge of my destiny

i give you my gift of disaster
you unwrap my insanity
i eat away at your self concious
you hate reigns down over me

if this is destiny
me defeating you
then i guess this means i have to do what i was born to
with nothing left to loose
we'll see who's the better man
with nothing left to proove
once i stand victorious in the end

pain becomes unbearable
suicide is freedom
death the quick escape
release captured life
tear this fagile mind
scar this damaged brain
this eyes now see nothing
but the hate and rage

i dispise the father figure who would abuse his son
just to make himself more of a man

fuck you selfishness
i'm sick of this shit that you put me through
no more holding back
time has come for me to kill you

i give you my gift of disaster
you unwrap my insanity
i eat away at your self concious
you hate reigns down over me