In my head is like hell

In my head it's like hell
And I don't think I've got the will
In my head it's all pain
God please wash me with your rain

In my head it's all strange
I can't remember any names
In my head it's like hell
And yet you want me still

I hate this what i am
'Cuz what i am is wrong
I can never find it in myself to get a move on
I'm always leaving trails
And my cover ups fail
I'm impulsive and repulsive
God damn I hate myself

But
You
You want me still (2x)

In my head I play the sham
God relieve me of these dreams
I'm much less of a man
Than make myself out to be

And it all comes down
To how I wear this frown
I've painted myself like a clown
You know, Jack

The systems down

I hate this what I am
'Cuz what I am is wrong
I can never find it in myself to get a move on
I'm always leaving trails
And my cover ups fail
I'm impulsive and repulsive
God damn I hate myself

But
You
You want me still (2x)