Addicted and numb

Yeah,
I've lost my pride recently
And now I am really trying to retrieve it
I know, I need it all to be true
Now all this shit happens without news

This is not exactly the life I chose
But I can tell ya I got nothing else to lose
No no, I'm not trying to run away
'Cause all my sins I know I got to pay

This pain, I can not explain
It's burning me inside
Erodes everything through my veins
I'm so addicted and high.

Sometimes my choices fucks everything
My family and friends asking "whatcha gonna bring
To this house, to your childs, to your wife? Are you proud?"
My only way to get out of this is singing out and loud

For sure it feels so good sometimes
Relaxes me, conforts me and helps me to create rhymes
I can get out of this, yeah I can do this
I won't fall again, I'm ready to make it real, I'll tell you one more time

This pain, I can not explain
It's burning me inside
Erodes everything through my veins
I'm so addicted and high

I'm so addicted and high
OH FUCK!!
I'm so addicted and high
I can handle this
I can handle, but please,
If it kill me forgive me for all this suffering

This pain, I can not explain
It's burning me inside
Erodes everything through my veins
I'm so addicted and high.