Beyond closed doors

This door is locked and I am inside
Dwelling on thoughts of death
Searching for strength
That I will never find
I remember the pain You took
I know it was greater than mine
But I need answers
I need to hear Your voice
What have I endured compared to You
You died
So I wouldn't have to go through this
The blade drops to the floor as I stand
I eagerly walk toward the door
As it opens I am given a new sight
Remembrance consumes my soul