(the whispering of) a nameless fear

Guilt comes to me
Like a thief in the night
Far from the past where it belongs
Now I believe
That it is more than a promise I had to keep

My mind is a stampede
Without order and without a goal
This is no curse and no evil
But the aimless, cycling road

Eyes are searching sight to clear the mist on my road
Feet, placing their marks will make their way through the maze

Suddenly, I see light in front of me
Giving faith but
Never they will be coming near to me
Suddenly all I feel is pain
The pain of Guilt that's in my heart, forever in me
Caused by my own mistakes

Pain fills my heart
Now I have choose
Forgiveness or allegiance
These I both refuse

On behalf of dignity
The truth was always left out
Now that I've arrived
I see my own dead end

Soon enough I must decide where my brain meets my heart
Though I know that point is nowhere to be found

Strangers talk to me but I can't see what they want to say
Trust has left its home and fear and rage came instead

That is why there's a change in how I feel
Lacking faith but
Soon enough there is no one left for me
All are gone, leaving me behind
Bruised and harmed cause
Everytime I had walked away but that now has to change

The hope I have always had
Forces my mind to choose
The path I have to go
And the way on which I won't loose
The path of loneliness is now mine
The path of danger can become mine
I am confused once more!

I went back, the way I came
And I know that it will be hard for me
I think that I'm blocked for I have to pay a toll
Hoping that...thinking that...I was right

I feel that my heart's where it belongs
Why can't I catch up now to finally
Learn to see the world through other eyes than mine
To know that I'm able to fly over this maze
Why can't I feel free that I was right in my choice
Always doing the right thing for me

Suddenly, I see light in front of me
Giving faith but
Never they will be coming near to me
Suddenly all I feel is pain
Pain of Guilt that's in my heart, forever in me
Caused by my own mistakes