Digging my own grave

Lost in words..
and in thoughts..
I cant believe this happened...
I cant believe i believed you..
leading me to a false future..
in which even blind humans can see..
the real you...

What a waste of time it was..
To believe such see through lies..
To be disposed of like trash...
what a waste of flesh...

And yet..
I still continue to believe..
thinking it will lead me to a happy ending..
When all I'm doing...
is digging my own grave...
What is the point of living
And trying to stay alive...
when i've already been long dead..