Soak it up

You cut off your hair
Despite all the warnings
And burned all my letters
On your concrete block
I wasn't there
When they found you
In the morning
I found a bullet
While you were finding God

I'll take the blame
But drinking's just too easy
And I can't soak it up
When the memories
Start to run
I have a plan
That could get us
To the next town
But I never thought
I'd drive this far
Without a gun

When the hurricane came
I didn't board the windows
I knew by the name
It was coming for me
I wasn't there
When the sun came
In the morning
I never had a reason
To stay anyway

I'll take the shot right
Between the eyes
But I just can't soak it up
When the memories start to run
I have a plan
That could get us
Through the next four summers
I never thought
I'd drive this far without a gun